Curiosity. Did it really kill the cat?

There are so many things in life I am curious about. Not all of them killed my cat. I'm sure I am not the odd man out, but there are quite a few things in life that I am "closet curious" concerning. You know, those things you don't dare tell people you really wonder. If you think I'm going to sit here and spew them all out to you, don't go on reading. You may really be disappointed.

There are though, things in life in which I am very curious about and willing to ask. Somehow or for some reason or anything, I have yet to ask them. My cat is meowing and scratching but has YET to come out and play. Got me?

A small list of questions in which I am looking for answers.

1) Why is it that you get looks for being a 20-something mother? Contrary to that, why is it you get looks for being a 40-something mother (new mother)? Im alittle lost on the idea that it is not "ok" to have a baby young, but it is also not "ok" to have a baby old. Did someone forget to let me in on the golden age of child bearing?

2)"it was all his fault". Do you know how many times I have heard that from friends and family (female quite obviously) after finding out they were pregnant.
"He didnt pull out or put on a condom"
I'm sorry, call me stupid, but is consented sex not a 2 way street? Is it really all up to the male to use a form of birth control in order to prevent babies? Do woman suddenly go blind the moment a penis is shown, and therefore are unaware at the time of protection is being used. Sorry sweetheart, if you didnt want a baby, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!

3)Why does the sky turn green when there is a tornado. I know, stupid question without any rambling after, but I really have always wondered.


It's silly that as an adult you can be afraid to question. I teach my girls to question what they are taught, question when they are unsure but most importantly I teach them to trust in what they know.

I probably already know the answer to 99% of the things I question, and allow myself to fear the answer. Fear will only render you in life. I've started to trust myself and trust what I know so that I can move forward and continue to develop in life. Wish me luck, it could get interesting!

And the stupidity rolls on....

and on....and on.....and on! It's like word vomit, but this time its vomit of lacking brain cells. Will it ever get any better?? Do you ever look up at God and ask him why over again x20? Ask him why you got put where you are, dealing with the shit you are dealing with. Today, I asked him. BOY did I ask him!

It seems like there is always family drama, and it really makes me wonder what people are thinking. Why on earth is it so hard for others to put their children first. I mean, is being selfless THAT damn difficult?? Am I an alien for being able to practice this trait in life?

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There are times in life when you need to sit back and re-evaluate the type of people you let into your life. Although their companionship, friendship, neediness and all of that lovely *not* stuff seems wonderful to YOU, think about how certain people effect others. Oh....like your children possibly?
**apologies for rambling without totally explaining, I would be here for hours if I did. Just let me bitch, ok?!**
Why would you let such trash into your life? Letting such negative behaviour happen around your children is uncalled for. I often sit back and wonder, just wonder, why God lets certain people have children. I am sure it is all in his plan and for good intentions, but I just dont see it! I worry. I worry for these innocent kids, I worry for my mothers sanity while trying to deal with all this. I worry that I may not be able to handle it all and be there to help my mom deal with it. Why do I have to deal?? Im the sister, not the mother! I shouldnt be dragged into all this all the time but I am, because I care about my neices and wont watch them possibly be hurt (not by my sister, but by pathetic people she allows around them).
Ugh, Im just so frustrated. In the end it makes me happy and proud for my family. I'm glad my children arnt raised like that, around that. They will never KNOW that!

I go to bed still questioning, and still wondering.



~The truth is plain to see... she was sent to rescue me.
I see who I want to be in my daughter's eyes.~

Bad, yet proud, mommy moment

I make it very clear to anyone who knows me that I allow my children to learn through experience. I won't shelter my children thinking it will protect them. I want them to experience, explore and learn through their triumphs and mistakes. Please don't get me wrong, I would never in my life put my child in harms way to learn a lesson, and I will also protect them to the best of my ability. Given that, I will not always be with my children 24/7 and believe that at some point in life, they need to learn to defend their own. I try to instill in my kids that it is ok to share their opinions, and to always be outspoken. I teach them that it is important to respect others and always keep an open mind when someone does, says, or feels a way you may not agree with. Along those lines, I also teach them to never change themselves in any way just to fall into anothers path of thinking. Don't let others change your views and stand strong in what you believe in.

Ok, so now onto my little story. As Alexis is going away to kindergarden in September, Ive come to realize that my little baby will no longer be under my wings all day. I can't always be there to stick up for her, help her with issues and hold her hand in a situation she may find frightfull. Ive had to teach her to use her independance in positive ways, trust in herself and to trust her instints. Its been hard, as I like her feeling safe and knowing mommy is always going to be there.

Monday night I took Alexis to watch her cousins soccer game. Alexis herself plays, and is alittle unsure of the sport and having her watch her big cousin playing seems to help her wanting to play herself. Normally we go as a family, but Brooklyn was overtired and daddy had some plays he needed to run to. He decided to keep Brooklyn home and walk into town and head to a few stores, knowing she would fall asleep on the way. I took Alexis with me and we headed to the field.

Normally she will watch 1/2 the game, get bored, and want to go play. Her and her cousin Kaitlyne decided they wanted to go to the park. Luckily, it is right beside the field they were playing at. So I sat on the step to the park, while being able to watch the game as well as my baby playing. A few minutes into her fun time, she game running to me complaining that a girl was being mean to her. I asked her what she was doing, and she said throwing rocks at her face. I said ok sweetie, remember when someone is doing something mean to you, ask them nicely to stop and tell them you dont like what they are doing. So she runs back and I see her talking to the little girl, who laughs and runs away. Fine by me, she did what she knew she was supposed to. Given this girl was about 8-9yrs old I was proud of my little 3yr old girl being respectful and the bigger person.

A few minutes later, Alexis runs up to me again crying saying the girl was still throwing rocks at her. This time I came up with her, and stood there as she asked the girl to stop. The girl started laughing and said no. At this point, I asked her myself and told her that I would like her to stop throwing rocks at the other children. The little girl ran away. Instead of keeping my eyes on the soccer game, I stood by on the side and watched the kids interact. Alexis was sliding down the slide and when she reached the bottom, the little girl came running up to her and threw rocks in her face. God what a brat! I started to walk towards them and the little girl saw me and ran to her father. Great, thank you! I walked over to the little girl and her father and told him what was going on, and explained that my 3yr old and myself had asked her to stop throwing rocks in her face. THe little girl laughed, and the father said "kids will be kids". I was fuming, swore, and walked away. The little girl ran over to where Alexis and Kati were, and I was standing there with them. She just stood there with a sneer on her face. I bent down to Alexis and simply said "sweetie, if this girl does not stop bugging you, I give you permission to knock her out". Alexis replied "what?" I said "Permission hunny, to hit her!" Then, I walked away. God that felt good, and the little girl went running to her father. He came over to me and asked what I told my daughter to do and I said to him "knock her out, and if you dont stop, Ill knock YOU out" and walked away, alexis in hand, and got a freezie from the snack bar.

Call me a bad mommy, thats fine. Unfortunatly I feel it was in my daughters best interest to teach her that at certain points in life, you may have to defend yourself. Luckily, i know my daughter very well. I know for certain she wouldn't hit another without absolute belief that she was in danger and it was her last option. I sat her down at home afterwards and explained to her how it is not proper to put your hands on another person, unless in specific circumstances, and explained those situations to her. She seemed to take it all in, and i trust she did being such a smart little girl.

Who would have thought!?!

Please give me some credit, and remember that my now very smart 3yr old decided that talking as not a necessity in everyday life until she hit the age of 2.

So on to my second daughter. My ignorance shines through when I automatically assume that they will be the same sort of person living in 2 bodies. I never once thought I would have to watch my sometimes trucker mouth around my 14 month old daughter! HA! Guess I was wrong, so very wrong.

Lately, Miss Brooklyn has been occupying herself by repeating simple words she hears on an everyday basis. She started around the time we went camping (not quite 2 weeks ago) and the entire weekend walked around saying "good girl". (*positive note, I tell her shes such a good girl all the time!!*). Ever since then, its been new habit. She will say please whenever she wants something, followed by a "tank tu" afterwards. Everything with more then 2 feet is a puppy in her eyes, and every man/woman/child/infant ext is a baby.

So on to the story. 2 days ago I was in the kitchen cooking Alexis her favorite lunch. Mamas homemade chicken and veggie soup (wish she didnt like it so much, it takes too long to make!). Stupid mama decided it would be a good idea to place her hand on the hot burner. Of course, I scream "OH SHIT!" and run off to put my hand under cold water. Out I come of the bathroom to hear "SHI" "SHI" . Just about the entire word, minis the T. I laughed at first, and told her nono and figured that would be the end. WRONG! My little einstein walked around the house ALL evening screaming, oh yes, SCREAMING "SHI" at the top of her lungs and then laughing.

Long story short, even though you child is a mere 14 months old, watch your trucker mouth. They may come out and suprise you one day.


**ending note, its been 2 days and we havn't heard "SHI" sence. THANK GOD!**

Not Always Right.

I just really needed to post a few of these. Thank you to Heather for sharing, you made my night that much brighter!!

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Water You, Stupid?
Airport | Kansas City, MO, USA
(While passing through airport security, a passenger’s bag needs to be pulled because the x-ray operator sees an obvious big bottle of water when the limit is 3.4 oz.)

Me: “Whose bag is this?”

Passenger: “Oh! Oh! Oohhh! It’s mine! Is there something wrong?”

Me: “I just need to take a quick look inside, ma’am. This shouldn’t take more than a couple of minutes.”

Passenger: “Well, hurry. I think they’re boarding my plane.”

(I open her bag and find the bottle almost immediately. She gasps as I pull it out.)

Me: “Ma’am, I’m afraid you cannot have this beyond this point.”

Passenger: “Why not? I just bought it, and it’s unopened!”

Me: “Ma’am, the rules clearly state that you cannot have any liquids over 3.4 oz in your carry on. If you’d like to, you could–”

Passenger: “But that’s not a liquid!”

Me: “Excuse me, ma’am?”

Passenger: “It’s not a liquid! It’s water! W-A-T-E-R! You know, H-2-O? For the love of God, don’t they hire anyone with more than a grade school education for security?”


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iPod, Meet iDiet
Retail | Minneapolis, MN, USA
(I’ve just spent about 10 minutes answering fairly standard questions from a customer about an iPod. Then, they asked this one…)

Customer: “Oh, before you leave I have one more question!”

Me: “Sure, what can I help you with?”

Customer: “Will the iPod get heavier if I put more songs on it?”

Me: “No…?”

(I was so dumbfounded I didn’t realize how stupid the question actually was until 10 minutes later.)

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Read a few for yourself, get a good laugh in tonight!
http://notalwaysright.com/

The sweet things in life

Is there anything sweeter then hearing your 3yr old randomly say "mommy, you're my best friend!" or your 1yr old screech out loud "MOMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!". My girls remind me of those sweet things life holds daily, and they make me realize time and time again why I am so blessed. Nothing in my life has been solid, everything has always been a big question. They've given me stability and a reason to answer all those questions. I thank them. They have saved me, and helped me to be the best person I can be. Beacuse of them I want to be honest, caring, open-minded and non-judgemental. That, I believe, children deserve. If I want them to be good people, it is me who needs to teach them how.

Let me tell you though, those sweet things in life my children teach me comes at a mighty price. Dealing with these characteristics they clearly gained from their mama makes me have alot more respect and understanding for my own mother. Let me paint you a small picture of who exactly these 2, seemingly innocent, children really are.

Alexis. Shes cheeky. Never a dull moment. You want an answer, boy will she give you one. You wanna know if your ass looks big in those jeans, ask her! (please, dont use ass though, she repeats everything and will never let you forget it was you who taught her the word ass!) You want honestly, this girl is dead and determined to give you just that. I've taught her to be honest, and never tell a lie. Unfortunatly, she dosnt quite understand just yet how to do this with tact, so blunt honesty is what she gives LOL.
Alexis is sassy. If she wants something, she will get it. She's not afraid to give attitude where attitude is needed. She will give you that "hell you KNOW im cute" smirk and sit back knowing, just knowing, that she is going to get what she asks for. You tell her no, she'll laugh at you. No only gives this child more drive to get what she wants!
She is silly. Always wants to have the last laugh. She loves watching people giggle at her silly faces, laugh at her jokes that only make sense to her fellow 3yr olds. Shes not afraid to make a plain old ass of herself if it means having those around her laugh. Quite the character she is!

Brooklyn....ohhh my dear Brooklyn. Anyone who has meet this young lady will tell you that she's got attitude. 14 months going on 14 she is! You tell her no, shell yell in your face right back, laugh, walk away, and do as she pleases anyways. You tell her danger, she will smirk that cute little smirk and go on her merry way regardless, all the whild looking back to make SURE you are still watching her do exactly what she is not to do. If she wants something, she will get it. Wether that means she has to scream at you, steal it from you or act cute and sweet to get it, she will.
Fearless. Up and down the steps walking, climbing on whatever obsticle is in her way. This little girl knows no fear. As im sure she would say if only she could talk "A little boo boo never hurt nobody!"

Daily I have to edure the trials of these 2 beautiful, charming yet secretly devilish young ladies. They drive mama mad, they make me yell and pull my hair out, but at the end of the day I wouldnt trade them for anything. No one can match the beauties they really are.

Update from the crazed

Things have been so hectic here on the home front. I don't get alot of time on the computer, so when I do updating this thing just wasn't on my mind. Apologies to all my avid readers...as well as the avid "hidden readers" (that's a whole nother blog).

So I will start off with Miss Brooklyn. Shes running, jumping and making a mess. She is such a character and has one attitude I would trade in no problem. I call her determined, I think that is my nice way of saying she can be a complete PITA! I will say, her whine spells have become fewer and farther in between. She is a wonderful, and I mean wonderful sleeper. That little girl begs for her crib by the time 7:30pm rolls around, and we dont hear a peep from her until 8am. She gets up, nurses, and goes back down until around 9ish. She is very happy in the morning, and loves to just play on her own (not so happy if someone is in her face). Nap time is the same time daily, 1230/1pm and lasts about 2hrs. Mama really shouldn't complain now should she?!?
She is learning new stuff on a daily basis. She loves body parts and will show you when asked where her eyes, nose, mouth, ears and belly are. She still isnt the biggest talker but some of her newest that she says daily are "tub tub" (while she is trying to climb in), "out" when standing by the door crying to go outside and "yummy". She loves to sing twinkle twinkle...which is really humming the tune with you and throwing in a few words like star, high and meeeeeee. As JM, she sang for her on the phone LOL. So cute!

Alexis....ohhhh miss Alexis. She had her gymnastics competition last weekend. She did AMAZING, and we were SO proud of our little girl. She got first place for her floor routine and her bean routine. She got second place on the vault and she got third place in the pit race. She has her ribbons and is more then pleased to show them off to anyone who asks. We went to her kindergarden orientation last night and she loved it there. Her teacher Mrs. O'Neil is just amazing. Her current J/K (pre-kindergarden) class is at a stage 5 (grade 1) reading level, and all but 1 child in her class can read. She showed us their writing journals and all the different activity stations she has planned. Great ways to learn math and science all while playing with things kids just love to play with. Alexis is now very excited for summer to be over and to be able to go to school. She really didn't want to leave last night, and has talked about it ever since.
Soccer started a few weeks ago and its going good. She was shy and apprehensive at first but has really come to love playing with her new friends there. We are deciding on swim lessons, but may just do a few private at a family members pool so we dont have to be stuck obligated for weeks when we wont be home. Other then that, Alexis is her same, cookey, silly, smart and playful self.

Other then all of that, things are going great. We have 2 concerts coming up. We are going to see John Mayer and One Republic with our BFF's in August. We are also going to see Hedley in October. Next weekend we are going camping with JM's family a few hrs away, and in August we are going to PA to Idlewild for a weekend of fun. Im sure we will plan lots more (like Marineland with our best friends, and lots of other fun stuff with them). Should be a great summer...about time!